I cannot believe the year is almost over. So many things have happened and changes I've made not only with my life but things happening around me. I've made some tremendous friends, done extraordinary things, began two companies that are thriving, decided to let go and let God as he is always the first in my life, lost a lot too. Starting today I am making the choice to say enough is enough.
My "real" life is hard, it's gut wrenching and difficult. I am a speaker and an educator and this years has brought many tears in the face of what I do. My hobby is vaping. I vape and educate because it's a way to make a total mind switch I can turn off the other things in my life and it gives me the greatest pleasure to do what I do.
Late last year I thought I would take a swing at being a vape reviewer. I LOVE IT!! I enjoy meeting new vapers, helping them and educating them. I started by helping at one of my local brick and mortar stores by building coils while they were busy and show new vapors how to use their equipment. That morphed into doing Vapers TV shows in late spring. I at that time was going through a personal crisis as my tumors on me brain stem were beginning to grow and I had to enter chemo. It made it difficult to set a schedule. So after leaving one channel I went to another that I thought I would call "home", however after a few months I found myself dreading doing it.
What I had made fun became a nightmare. I was thrilled and excited every time I aired and would lead in the #1 spot, however health issues again took a front seat and as I gained momentum with sponsors and reviews, those I worked with seemed to become jealous of what I was working so extremely hard to create. I spent hours every day writing, emailing and talking to potential sponsors. That part was enormously exciting and I felt I was bringing something special to my viewers, however those I worked with called me names and became, in my opinion, jealous of what I had worked so hard for.
I decided I needed to be happy again. I spent too many days either crying or walking on egg shells just so I wouldn't piss someone off, and what they felt was joking deeply hurt my feelings. Calling people names like "sponsor whore" etc is not flattering. It's an insult and cut deep to my heart. so after prayerful contemplation I decided I needed to do something for myself. Were others involved with my decision ABSOLUTELY! And to this day have stood beside me in support. AND those whom I thought hated me came along side me as well and have helped and supported me through my new adventure.
NOW as of TODAY....I am saying ENOUGH!! i want what has happened to be put to rest. I don't want to fight, I don't care about ratings, I care about my friends, family and followers who want nothing more from me then to support me and learn from me. Are there still vultures flying around...OH YES..every show we sit waiting to ban another who wants to rain on my parade. WELL I am done. I have said NOTHING never NAMED NAME EVER, and I still won't they know who they all are, yet those whom have called me out publicly have yet again created a wedge instead of going along and allowing people to be who and what they are. They preach no drama yet create a LOT of it because without it what else do they have to talk about??
So with all this said I wish them well. I hope they succeed at whatever venture they take. They've destroyed a business, tried to destroy relations with my sponsors, and over time people have seen their true colors. BUT I AM ASKING EVERYONE THIS IS DONE OVER FINISHED!!!
People we have bigger fish to fry then fighting with one another. We have the FDA wanting to close 99% of this industry. State are enacting policies making it so difficult to even be in the e-cig business that a lot are shutting their doors. THIS is who we need to be fighting. SO let's look at our true enemies and get to work because as long as we fight among ourselves the only winner will be BIG TOBACCO and PHARMACEUTICAL!!!
~~~~Jenn
My "real" life is hard, it's gut wrenching and difficult. I am a speaker and an educator and this years has brought many tears in the face of what I do. My hobby is vaping. I vape and educate because it's a way to make a total mind switch I can turn off the other things in my life and it gives me the greatest pleasure to do what I do.
Late last year I thought I would take a swing at being a vape reviewer. I LOVE IT!! I enjoy meeting new vapers, helping them and educating them. I started by helping at one of my local brick and mortar stores by building coils while they were busy and show new vapors how to use their equipment. That morphed into doing Vapers TV shows in late spring. I at that time was going through a personal crisis as my tumors on me brain stem were beginning to grow and I had to enter chemo. It made it difficult to set a schedule. So after leaving one channel I went to another that I thought I would call "home", however after a few months I found myself dreading doing it.
What I had made fun became a nightmare. I was thrilled and excited every time I aired and would lead in the #1 spot, however health issues again took a front seat and as I gained momentum with sponsors and reviews, those I worked with seemed to become jealous of what I was working so extremely hard to create. I spent hours every day writing, emailing and talking to potential sponsors. That part was enormously exciting and I felt I was bringing something special to my viewers, however those I worked with called me names and became, in my opinion, jealous of what I had worked so hard for.
I decided I needed to be happy again. I spent too many days either crying or walking on egg shells just so I wouldn't piss someone off, and what they felt was joking deeply hurt my feelings. Calling people names like "sponsor whore" etc is not flattering. It's an insult and cut deep to my heart. so after prayerful contemplation I decided I needed to do something for myself. Were others involved with my decision ABSOLUTELY! And to this day have stood beside me in support. AND those whom I thought hated me came along side me as well and have helped and supported me through my new adventure.
NOW as of TODAY....I am saying ENOUGH!! i want what has happened to be put to rest. I don't want to fight, I don't care about ratings, I care about my friends, family and followers who want nothing more from me then to support me and learn from me. Are there still vultures flying around...OH YES..every show we sit waiting to ban another who wants to rain on my parade. WELL I am done. I have said NOTHING never NAMED NAME EVER, and I still won't they know who they all are, yet those whom have called me out publicly have yet again created a wedge instead of going along and allowing people to be who and what they are. They preach no drama yet create a LOT of it because without it what else do they have to talk about??
So with all this said I wish them well. I hope they succeed at whatever venture they take. They've destroyed a business, tried to destroy relations with my sponsors, and over time people have seen their true colors. BUT I AM ASKING EVERYONE THIS IS DONE OVER FINISHED!!!
People we have bigger fish to fry then fighting with one another. We have the FDA wanting to close 99% of this industry. State are enacting policies making it so difficult to even be in the e-cig business that a lot are shutting their doors. THIS is who we need to be fighting. SO let's look at our true enemies and get to work because as long as we fight among ourselves the only winner will be BIG TOBACCO and PHARMACEUTICAL!!!
~~~~Jenn